I'm changed.
I'm a brand new person with brand new feelings. I changed my way to be, because you know, it's too much to handle. I can't stand this way much longer, because the "good girls" don't give a shit. They never get a perfect happy life; no on cares about people like that; like me.
Almost nobody in this world deserves my good actions for them. I'm done.
In this life, - this awful life - the bad ones are who dominates; always. So why should I be a good person?
Yep you're right, there are no reasons to be like this, and because of that, I'm not the same person I was before.
So Rita is dead. Say Hi to the new me.